Starting again.

It’s been almost 9 months since we had our miscarriage and it’s been a very numb, strange and emotional few months where both my husband and I have been playing this game of grieving.

Neither of us really knew how to comfort each other when both of us were hurting so much however, the silver lining of having a miscarriage is we are stronger than we ever could imagine.  I feel that we are coming through the other side of the black cloud that has surrounded our lives for the past 9 months.

We decided early on that we wanted to try again and I think we started to try before both of us were really ready to face the facts. We both have fertility issues.

I have Polycystic ovaries (PCOS) and my husband has fertility issues our statistics are not the best but we are both hopeful. We always knew about my PCOS but we only found out about my husband’s infertility just a month after the loss and we were not really in a good place emotionally to address it.

Now however, we are ready to start again. Back to the vitamins. Back to the eating fresh food and losing weight. Back to being us and not shadows going through the motions of living.

It’s never going to go away and I will never be the person I was before but I think I am ok with that as life is always ups and downs and it’s how we deal with the downs that make the good times great.

Just Kelly xx